Ok, Ok, Mary Jo…I’m doing it, I’m blogging.
I’m letting go of all the “who’s going to read this”
I am the face of lung cancer. The current picture was taken March 13, 4 days before starting my 2nd go-around of treatment for adenocarcinoma, or non-small-cell lung cancer. Since then, I've lost almost all of my hair...I'll try to post a new pic shortly.
I was previously diagnosed just before my 53rd birthday in December of 2008. I was Little Miss Sunshine the first time around, and now find myself balking about whether I want to or can keep myself in that box, at least as constantly.
I’ve got such a good support group of friends. I guess part of me wonders how letting myself whine more will impact my friendships. I know…it’s easier to be around when someone isn’t darkly contemplative, or just plain bemoaning the obvious gradual loss of their hair. And I know I probably sound grumpy when I respond “please don’t suggest that I just be upbeat & cheerful.” If you know me, you’d have a hard time remembering me being anything other than that all last year during Round One.
I know, it’s hard to know what to say, but sometimes I’m not wanting advice.
I’m just wanting to be heard, and yes, maybe even babied.
Agree with me, please, so that I can move on. Put your emotional arms around me and say "Awww...
Sometimes, it DOES suck!”
OK, I feel better now.
Linda Miss Sunshine
Banter, buffoonery, cancer, creativity…who knows where it might lead?
Hey Linda! Glad you got a new site!
ReplyDeleteLinda Miss Sunshine is a part of you but not all of you. Even the sun takes a break every night and the moon is full only a couple nights a month. We can't expect to outdo mother nature!
I say bring it on sister! The good, the bad, the ugly, the joyful, the hopeful, the despondent...whatever it is is meant to be and nothing that you say or feel can be bad. Frankly, too much sunshine bores me.
You are a wonderful, wise:) woman before, during and after cancer.
Imagine my emotional arms around you saying, "awww, it DOES suck!" Because it does, but you don't.
Love you!
Mary Jo
Awwww, and NOW I'm wearing a BIG smile, Mary Jo.
ReplyDeleteI agree. I'm willing to hear you.
ReplyDeleteand if there's a way, I'll baby you too.
(((Linda)))
Electra...I'll take the babying when I need it, but for now, I'll visit your blog to be INSPIRED!
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