Ok, Ok, Mary Jo…I’m doing it, I’m blogging.
I’m letting go of all the “who’s going to read this”
I am the face of lung cancer. The current picture was taken March 13, 4 days before starting my 2nd go-around of treatment for adenocarcinoma, or non-small-cell lung cancer. Since then, I've lost almost all of my hair...I'll try to post a new pic shortly.
I was previously diagnosed just before my 53rd birthday in December of 2008. I was Little Miss Sunshine the first time around, and now find myself balking about whether I want to or can keep myself in that box, at least as constantly.
I’ve got such a good support group of friends. I guess part of me wonders how letting myself whine more will impact my friendships. I know…it’s easier to be around when someone isn’t darkly contemplative, or just plain bemoaning the obvious gradual loss of their hair. And I know I probably sound grumpy when I respond “please don’t suggest that I just be upbeat & cheerful.” If you know me, you’d have a hard time remembering me being anything other than that all last year during Round One.
I know, it’s hard to know what to say, but sometimes I’m not wanting advice.
I’m just wanting to be heard, and yes, maybe even babied.
Agree with me, please, so that I can move on. Put your emotional arms around me and say "Awww...
Sometimes, it DOES suck!”
OK, I feel better now.
Linda Miss Sunshine